i”ve always wished i was able to read minds or to turn invisible but thinking about it i now, i’ve figured that i’d just end up getting hurt with all the truth. im just going with either grey or pink now. if only there was a button for controlling minds..
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I AM DYING .
My First Life Line
My eyes glowed as I saw my idol sing in perfect melody. Her beautiful chocolate colored eyes glowing as the stage lights reflected upon them. Her voice syncing with the melody of the music. Her sweat on her forehead colored blue and purple due to the stage lights. Her hips swaying professionally to the beat. Her lyrics playing through my soul as I can relate to the words. The lyrics not just for a song but lyrics that tell a story. My heart pounding with excitement as I watch her. My ears ringing as the crowd cheers loudly as our idol follows her dream on stage. Her brownish and blondish wavy hair flipping in a perfect motion as she does her moves. The crowd cheers even louder when she does that. Her huge signature smile glowed in our hearts. It was the best day of my life. I was watching the idol that changed my life,Demetria Devonne Lovato.
My first time I laid eyes on Demi was in 2008 when she played a famous role on a movie on Disney channel called’Camp Rock’. Her hair was dark brown and pin straight with bangs. She played a character named ‘Mitichie’. For some reason she was my favorite character, I just had a connection with her. In the movie she wanted to fit in and in one point in my life I wanted to fit in too. The first time I saw the movie I loved her voice, it was very soft and sweet, like whip cream. When I saw the movie the second time she said something that stood out to me. She said “Stop talking to me like that, stop talking to everyone like that, I may be the cooks daughter but I’m a much better person than someone that has to be better than everyone else and make everyone else feel bad, and I’d take that any day”that was something I wanted to say to all the bullies and girls at my school at the time. That’s when I felt she was really cool, and I knew that she was gonna be one of my favorite people. In 2010 she had her own show with cast mates called ‘Sonny with a chance’. Her name was ‘Sonny’ and her character always made me laugh. I could relate to her character because her character was a hugger and was a regular girl moving into a town of unusual people. She was a small girl coming into a big town. And since that show I became an ever bigger fan, I became a Lovatic which she calls her dedicated fans. I would look her up 24/7 and listened to all her albums. ‘Get back’ and ‘Here we go again’ were the two albums she had at the time and I fell in love with her voice and music.
In 2010-2011 she entered rehab. I was at school and my mom texted me the news and it was hard for me to take in because she was my idol and she entered rehab for terrible things. I grew up with her the past 3 years and I felt dumb because I didn’t know she had the problems and I always thought her smile was real. I had a connection with her yet I didn’t know her smile was fake. But I began to love Demi even more, and it was really hard to see the person you love and look up to in so much pain. But I was extremely proud of her for getting help. She went into rehab for cutting, eating disorders, and other addictions she had. I even remember reading an article in 2009 that said they caught a picture of her with cuts on her wrists and I believed it but my mom said not to so I listened to my mom but I somewhat felt that it was still true. But all that didn’t matter as long as she got help.
In 2011 when she left rehab, her eyes became different, everything became different. Her eyes weren’t filled with darkness anymore, they were filled with happiness. Her smile was bigger and real. That filled my heart with pure warmth. She came clean about all of her problems and made speeches and spoke about how serious self-harm and eating disorders and addictions are. In one interview her eyes were glowing and she said something beautifully. She said”Your imperfections make you beautiful,they make you who you are. Just be who you are and love yourself for who you are, and just keep going.” That speech gave a whole bunch of people hope, including me. After her struggles she released an album called’Unbroken’ and the name of it alone put a smile in my heart. It felt so good to know she wasn’t broken anymore. I remember the day I bought it, I ran inside walmart and I squealed as I grabbed the CD and as soon as I got home I put in the CD and put it on high. I was struggling through some secretive problems when that album came out. But her album helped get me through it a bit. I felt alone. I was skipping through songs then a song came on that changed me. The song’My love is like a star’ came on and for once, I didn’t feel alone. The chorus changed me. It went”My loves like a star yeah, you can’t always see me, but you know that I’m always there, if you see one shining take it it’s mine and remember I’m always near, if you see a comet baby I’m on it making my way back home, just follow the globe yeah it won’t be long, just know that you’re not alone.” Those lyrics changed my life. Once I heard it, I knew if I needed someone, I can turn to her music.
All this love and obsession lead to March 2nd 2013. I saw her live at Universal Mardi Gras. I always promised she would be my first concert, and she was. I remember seeing the commercial”March 2nd 2013, special performance by Demi Lovato in Universal Mardi gras” my face lit up and I had a smile on my face and I squealed and ran to my mom. She already heard it and knew how important this was to me so she told me we will go see her and my heart filled with excitement. We walked into Universal and I remember the excitement in me. I waited in the freezing cold for 9 hours but I didn’t care, Demi was worth it. I couldn’t feel my fingers or toes but I stayed. I was 8 rows from front row and I was so happy. I stood there and waited with the huge crowd of Lovatics. We were cheering. “Demi!Demi!Demi!”we kept cheering over and over and there were side screens on the stage and Demis picture came on and the crowd cheered loudly. We waited there for another hour. I giggled as people said”Hurry! We’re here to see our wife!”. It then got dark and everyone cheered loudly as Demis band came out, the cheering was uncontrollable. I was so happy and cheered loudly. Then the song ‘Unbroken’ began and a small figure of a woman came out and I was in disbelief. It was Demi Lovato. It was Demetria Devonne Lovato right there. My idol was singing in front of me. She sang and her voice was so amazing. But what really amazed me and saved my life is when she gave her speech. She looked at the crowd with her chocolate brown eyes and her signature smile. She said”When I sing, I do it to help, I do it to save people, I sing because I know there’s at least one person in the crowd that I can save and that’s good enough for me, so if you’re suffering wether it’s cutting or an eating disorder or bullying or an addiction, you can get through it because I’m standing here today as proof.” When she said, I felt the person she was saving in that crowd was me.
Now I’m a stronger person and a Warrior. Demi will always be in my heart. She’s not only a savior to me but she’s a savior to many people and I could never ask for a better person to look up too. I read a poem that is completely true. It read”Little does she know, she’s the reason a beautiful soul still has the courage to live. Little does she know she’s not just an artist, she doesn’t just make music, she’s a lifesaver. Little does she know one single fan in the crowd sees her as their whole universe. Little does she know she wasn’t just made to sing, she was made for a much bigger purpose, she was made to make people happy. Little do we know it worked both ways, without us, she wouldn’t exist either.” That was the most beautiful thing I read and it made me tear up. Now I have hope thanks to an inspiration, a warrior, a savior, a strong person, my idol, Demetria Devonne Lovato.
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